I came up with a great idea for this blog. A blog where I could record my progress as I learned new skills. A place where I could flesh it all out and actually make progress and achieve my goals.

Alas, I have however failed to do any of this for very long. Though I have been busy. As an example, I have been improving my tennis with ruthless tenacity and focus as always, though I haven’t been notating my progress. Lately, my forehand has greatly improved, as more and more technical details are abstracted away, giving my mind the freedom to focus on other technical factors which are yet to be locked away in the vault of muscle memory.

I digress. The point was that while I have kept myself busy with tennis, teaching music, practicing guitar, gigs, gaming and other things, I haven’t been particularly goal orientated (with the exception of tennis). This is of course, the point of this blog, to track my progress towards a particular goal, and document it in the form of useful content. I also haven’t spent much time at all on my tech related goals of late, regrettably.

What a feel ashamed of is that I haven’t consistently kept writing and posting. If my content was not great, that’s one thing, because I could always improve it. Doing something average in pursuit of a worthy goal is far better than doing nothing because you fear being mediocre or aimless. I should be improving my quality and aim through hard work and tireless iteration. As I write, I’m reminded of something Steven Pressfield says, “The professional sits down and goes to work whether he feels like it or not”. Good or bad work? It doesn’t matter, because the professional goes to work.

I want to get back on the wagon. But how? Well, that brings me back to the title of this blog post. Talk about rock bottom…..I guess this is it. Accept that you fell off the wagon. Start over, and accept yourself through patience and through the self respect gained through ruthless self discipline. Accept rock bottom, be patient and accept yourself as you are, and where you are as you strive for improvement.